I can recall the first * session* BDSM session that i had with a * real time * and legitimate DOM/ Master... it was incredible and it was what kept me on my exploration of the lifestyle. I am very grateful that experience was with a Master that lived the lifestyle, I think he was more capable of truly understanding the limits and he understood that in our own ways, We ( subs) are truly the ones in charge. We are the ones that allow Masters to be Masters, and without our agreement to submit, there would be no Masters. LOL And he taught me the limits of enjoyment of pain, he taught me some things that i did not enjoy , and let me know that any * Master* that crossed that line, did not truly respect the relationship between a Master/ Dom and slave/ sub. So i am very grateful for that experience and the lessons that i learned from it.

BDSM is actually the Style of my life. At my 25 y.o. I had my first SM session. Some later I began to live in 24/7 relations.
My last relations were realy amazing... until my Master switched to a switch... and wanted to see me in dominance position. It turned to be absolutly unacceptable for me. I've got a bad subdrop after it and stoped all BDSM practices. And I couldn't accept him again as my Master so I had to remove my collar.
The only thing I really miss now is the flying feeling of subspace. :wub:

BDSM is actually the Style of my life. At my 25 y.o. I had my first SM session. Some later I began to live in 24/7 relations.
My last relations were realy amazing... until my Master switched to a switch... and wanted to see me in dominance position. It turned to be absolutly unacceptable for me. I've got a bad subdrop after it and stoped all BDSM practices. And I couldn't accept him again as my Master so I had to remove my collar.
The only thing I really miss now is the flying feeling of subspace. :wub:

You should give a new chance to another Master. Now you have practice and this will help you to find a Master who is straight dominant. If you live out your BDSM as a lifestyle you should accept same problems like in 'normal' life. It's difficult to find the right partner and if you think you have the right one he changes or shows his real character. The real character can be totally different.

You are right. But I'm not ready for that. In BDSM, especially in D/s, the connection between people is deeper then in "normal" life. The soul of the bottom is absolutely naked for the Top. I'm not ready to have it opened for anyone again.

You are right. But I'm not ready for that. In BDSM, especially in D/s, the connection between people is deeper then in "normal" life. The soul of the bottom is absolutely naked for the Top. I'm not ready to have it opened for anyone again.
Never say never. Especically if you move in the sphere of BDSM. You will feel him...

You will feel him...

"feel" - what a great word in stead of "find" !!!!! Thank you MDP.

You will feel him...

"feel" - what a great word instead of "find" !!!!! Thank you MDP.

Yeah... that's it!
I do know it